dreamz at one in the morning!

i try to hold back. hold back these thoughts of sadness. is there any hope left for me to find. i go to the park today and see you there. see you there sitting on a swing. your all alone and im left to ask myself why? why do you sit there on that swing in this abandand park? its like a desert field out here. that swing you sit upon hasnt seen a child's bum in ages. i would know, i used to come here everyday after school but its been awhile. i know why im here, but why are you? all these questions race through my mind so fast its hard to calculate it all. i look down to my old rundown shoes. yeah the ones with all those holes in them. they barely cover my feet but i still wear them because they remind me of you and the times we used to share. i return my sight to you on the swing, your gone. you must of moved when i looked down at my destroyed shoes. i look around to see where you might have gone. your no where to be found. the next thing i know your tapping my shoulder with two fingers from behind. it scares me so i jump in fright as i turn around. you ask, "have you been thinking about me lately? like you promised you always would. have i been in your dreams lately? like you promised i always would." i look into your crystal blue eyes. i must not lie to you as i shake my head and whisper that two letter word i thought i'd never say to you, no. you reach for me with one arm and place it on my shoulder. you look down at the ground then return your beautiful crystal blue eyes to my big brown ones. in a soft voice you say its okay and that i must move on from those thoughts that once meant the world to me. its time for you to let go. you move your hand from my shoulder down to my hand and intertwein your fingers in mine. you take a step closer. i hesitate and take a step back. you look back down at my destroyed shoes and whisper its okay. once again you take one step closer and this time i dont hesitate. instead i take another step closer and place my head against your chest. all i can think to myself at this point is..... can this possibly be real. can this be happening to me right now? have you returned to me? i breathe in the scent of your cologne. i miss that scent so much. i remove my head from your chest and look up and back into your eyes. you look down at me and whisper i will forever love you but its time for you to let go. don't forget me just let go. and then you simply fade away. right out of my arms. im left standing alone in an abandoned park. the very park we used to play in when we were kids. i start thinking again. did all this really just happen. jacob on the swing then the next thing i know my head against his chest breathing in the scent of his cologne. it cant be, it wasnt. all it was, was a figment of my imagination. i miss him so badly im no longer sane. i walk to the swing that imaginary jacob was sitting in. i sit down and start kicking my feet in the dirt. then my mind fades off in the distance and probably will never return. the next thing i know the doctor appears in the park. he has come to get me and bring me back to the hospital where they will give me medicine and five minutes later all my thoughts of the past will be lost. and thats how my sad story ends.

jaimieJUSTIFIED