ifound out about To Write Love On Her Arms through a couple of friends about a year ago. At the time iwas struggling with the loss of many of my friends. most of them lost their life to addiction and suicide. iwas so filled with emotion icould just crack. it hurt so badly inside to know that the people iloved ever so much were gone, to know iwould never see them again. ididnt know how to deal with the pain so istarted popping my mums pain killers and sleeping for hours, sometimes for days. istarted smoking pot after someone told me it was a get away without actually leaving. isoon had started thinking about suicide. it just seemed like the drugs werent helping and iwas afraid of death even though ididnt want to live anymore. thats when ibrought back an old habit and started to self inflict injury's upon myself again. within two weeks my arms and legs were covered in cuts and scars. for about two months the same routine would happen. iwould wake up in the morning crying, slice my wrist. go to school wearing long sleeves and jackets to cover my wounds. iwould then come home from school still upset over something...everything, then slicing my arm/leg again just watching as the blood would poor. watching my pain leave from my body. ijust felt so alone feeling as if there was no one to talk to. ijust felt like dying.
about six months in of suffering from depression, cutting myself, going in and out of therapy not being able to find the right counselor is when iheard my friends talking about TWLOHA. after hearing about it iwent and looked it up on the social networking site everyone knows: myspace. iread the story which sounded similar in a way to my own. then seeing it spread through music, bands that ihad listened to. irealized then that iwasnt the only one that was going through this. iwasnt the only one suffering with self injury and depression. ifinally was able to open up and start a conversation telling my feelings to someone else. at that point in time ino longer felt alone.
TWLOHA gave me that sign of hope. it showed me i'm not alone in this. that there is a way out. there is a way of coming clean. ifeel that without TWLOHA iprobably would have already committed suicide or OD'd on drugs. istill suffer a little bit with depression but iam no longer cutting myself and ino longer have thoughts of suicide!
TWLOHA helped me, it can help you to.
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