last night; ignorance

on everyones part everything was complete ignorance and just basically fucking pathetic. im sick and tired of dealing with the shit in my house. so what my mum's boyfriend moved in, theres a new one like every four months so i have just learned to fuckin deal. i never get asked if its alright it just always happens and then like a month after they move in, something happens, they break up, and he moves out. but this time my grams got involved.

so heres the story:
my mum came home pissed as usual ever since the BF moved in. she walked to the porch grabbed a beer. sat on the porch and didnt want to speak to anyone just like she didnt the night before. then without thinking she got up walked around back and went to walk around the block. half hour goes by, shes still not home. as much as i say i hate her i was getting kind of worried. so i took the dog and walked around the block looking for her. now i am 100% positive that her car was in the drive way when i left. and when i got back it wasnt there. so now im really wigged out and stressed as fuck. i stay outside and smoke a ciggarette. when i went back inside i was just thinking "well hey i will just call her." haha funny thing she left her god damn phone on the counter. so i just sat and waited for her to get back.

it was about 10pm now and Robbie called. so to make sure i wouldnt fall asleep i talked to him. then my grams decided to take things into her own hands and thought that my mums BF was using me, she was drunk as usual. so she started yelling at him and i was like Robbie can you hear that and he was like yeah and i said well now you know what i go through 4 times out of a 7 day week. of course he had felt it because i guess its the same way with him. i was soooooo stressed by this point. my chest started to feel like it was sinking again. the way it was the night before. Robbie said some random shit to distract me. of course it worked(: anywho so 3am rolls around and my mum is still not back. i have no clue as to where she was, so i called around. in fact, no one knew where she was. so when i got off the phone with Robbie at around 3:30am i just went to sleep.

Dude, i woke up this morning, mum was back, and it was as if nothing happened.


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