todays events were hella

alright so i wake up and everything is silent. the air was stale. i go outside and let the dog out. come back in a make a cheese bagel. those things are soo great. i love them(: anywho, around 10:30ish my mum comes out of her room, i was sitting on twitter. she asked me if i was dressed and i was like yeah. she was like ohk, you have five minutes to do something with your hair and meet me outside. i went and threw my hair into a side ponytail and bumped my bangs. then i went outside and got in the car. she then asked so where to. and i was like huh. where to she said again. i was like well im hungry do you want to go to chili's, sure lets go. after we had brunch i was like well i havent been to point orlando in a while so lets go there, when we got there it was really slow and nothing was open. so we headed to downtown disney. ha i went and made lago people at the lago store(: i bought a new anklet as well. then we headed back home and mum made dinner, for once. cause i always have to make it.

then 6:30pm comes around and i get a phone call. at first i thought it was Robbie but then i was like no he wouldnt call this early. turns out it was my dad. it was so nice talking to him. its like the longest conversation i have had with him in so long. ha so im going to see him on father's day and meet my lil brother. im not sure what we are gonna do but oh well. i love how excepting he is of the choices i have made(:

haha im gonna laugh if we have that father daughter bonding and go get tattoos. hes so cool. and that would be something that would be memorable forever. and your first tattoo should have meaning. the meaning to mine would be my dad.
someone would ask so where ya get your first tatt at. i would be all like dude its right here on my hip and the best part about it is i shared the moment with my dad(:

it feels so great saying that. and that memory would be with me forever. whenever im thinking of him i would look at it. despite our ups and downs i really do love him.


jaimieJUSTIFIED

last night; ignorance

on everyones part everything was complete ignorance and just basically fucking pathetic. im sick and tired of dealing with the shit in my house. so what my mum's boyfriend moved in, theres a new one like every four months so i have just learned to fuckin deal. i never get asked if its alright it just always happens and then like a month after they move in, something happens, they break up, and he moves out. but this time my grams got involved.

so heres the story:
my mum came home pissed as usual ever since the BF moved in. she walked to the porch grabbed a beer. sat on the porch and didnt want to speak to anyone just like she didnt the night before. then without thinking she got up walked around back and went to walk around the block. half hour goes by, shes still not home. as much as i say i hate her i was getting kind of worried. so i took the dog and walked around the block looking for her. now i am 100% positive that her car was in the drive way when i left. and when i got back it wasnt there. so now im really wigged out and stressed as fuck. i stay outside and smoke a ciggarette. when i went back inside i was just thinking "well hey i will just call her." haha funny thing she left her god damn phone on the counter. so i just sat and waited for her to get back.

it was about 10pm now and Robbie called. so to make sure i wouldnt fall asleep i talked to him. then my grams decided to take things into her own hands and thought that my mums BF was using me, she was drunk as usual. so she started yelling at him and i was like Robbie can you hear that and he was like yeah and i said well now you know what i go through 4 times out of a 7 day week. of course he had felt it because i guess its the same way with him. i was soooooo stressed by this point. my chest started to feel like it was sinking again. the way it was the night before. Robbie said some random shit to distract me. of course it worked(: anywho so 3am rolls around and my mum is still not back. i have no clue as to where she was, so i called around. in fact, no one knew where she was. so when i got off the phone with Robbie at around 3:30am i just went to sleep.

Dude, i woke up this morning, mum was back, and it was as if nothing happened.


jaimieJUSTIFIED

June 12th, 2009. well i think thats todays date.

todays events arent much. they actually add up to nothing. so whats the point. ummm i slept til noon because the night before i went to bed at 7 and then Robbie called at 11. when i got off the phone with him it was like 1 in the AM. and then i couldnt go back to sleep. ha i had frosted flakes, they were good. well yeah so when i woke up at noon i definitly didnt really feel to hot. i was like sweating, i had a fever. and i was shaking really bad and my chest was all tense. and then i discovered i sit funny.

but anywho i got on myspace and made myself some coffee. went outside to smoke a ciggarette(btw i burnt myself), then came back inside and ended up talking to Robbie on AIM for like 5 hours. i didnt even know that was possible because im not a big fan of AIM but i guess it is. i truely didnt even realize that 5 hours had rolled by. grawr i havent eaten anything all day on top of that. just dont seem to be hungry as usual. i dont know whats wrong with me. but i guess im going to bed now and im sure Robbie will end up calling later.

jaimieJUSTIFIED

what can i say, but the best night of my fucking life.

its so hard to describe. it started as a very lonely night as usual. sitting around getting ready to fall asleep and wake up later to Robbie's gorgeous phone calls. when Rebekah Hayley Beumel came and stole me up for the night. we headed to Josh's of course. i mean we are all summer buddies. i bought them pizza because im the one that always has the money so i always buy them food, no big. then we had a photo shoot which is what we live for. then we talked on the phone with matt for like god knows how long. and then i passed out. and might i say i hate being awaken at 4:30 in the AM to Rebekah pulling the pillow out from underneath my head and me hitting the wall. it hurt. and sqweezing onto a queen size bed isnt so comfortable either.

haha then we woke up and myspaced it. lawlz i got pretty pissed at turtle boy so i was all like "IM GOING ON TWITTER!" hehe definitly a new catch phrase whenever i get mad. because what best to do when your mad but get on twitter. even though it really is a pointless website. ha 11:30 AM rolls around and me and Bekah walk to my house from Josh's, not really that far. chill at my home, rebekah showers, and matt comes over. totally felt like the third wheel, oh well. then we went to publix to get milk, haha. and went and picked up Stacy. really it was really entertaining until you walk into your room and feel as though you just walked in on something. but its whateves.

so as lame as the events of the past two days days sound. it really was quite the fun.

anywho. add myspace.com/jaimiesonmyspace
and comment the photos.


jaimieJUSTIFIED

rain rain come this way

i want it to rain

for the sunshine to go away

for my tears to be free to fall in silence
and no one able to see.



jaimieJUSTIFIED

i believe

that as much as you hate
someone for their past
that they can change in
the long run.
as we get older we are
still learning. and everyone
makes mistakes.

so when one person doesnt
let them fix it and then the child
suffers from it, its pathetic.


yeah our relationship will never
be great and its different then
a normal father daughter relationship
but im still willing to try.
even though i have tried so many
times in the past.

so dad,
its your go.

are you willing to make an effort again?



-jaimieJUSTIFIED